Writing as a person who has a “day job.” I’m not an entrepreneur, I’m not a business person. I can’t afford to just write and make money off of my writing. I have zero expectations that writing will make me financially stable. But writing isn’t a hobby for me, writing keeps me alive. Writing gives me the strength to go outside my apartment and exist as a human being in a society filled with other human beings. Sometimes being human is scary.
But I’ve found, more harshly than previous bouts of writer’s block, in the last few months I haven’t been able to write. I haven’t found myself capable of putting the ideas forming in my brain onto the page. I have several works in progress and several ideas for how to make them awesome but when I turn on my iPad to write I can’t make the words happen.
So what do I do?
Continue reading Why can’t I write?
Now I only write numbers.
05 line the 26 day line 2018
My initials are not letters but curves in the road, a roundabout, a punctuated swirl.
I never write my initials the same way twice
But the lab techs and quality know every time it’s me because they
I don’t know what they write I do know
I don’t write words anymore, only numbers
10 line 04 line 2017 JH
And so on
And so on
With ballpoint pen
I used to hate writing with ballpoints but you can get used to anything if you do it long enough curls in the road like a ribbon, a strand of hair, a stray thought that begins where you are and takes you where you want to be with who you want to be with but if you lose focus you have to error correct and then there are more numbers and more lines
The physical physicality of writing