Nanowrimo Day 3 (2018) Affirmations/Motivation

“I understand that I am a talented person, capable of heroic acts of creativity, and I will give myself enough time over the course of the next month to allow my innate gifts to come to the surface, unmolested by self-doubt, self-criticism, and other acts of self-bullying.”

–from The Month-Long Novelist Agreement and Statement of Understanding

“I am good enough.

I am extraordinary in fact.

I have so much to give.

I am a wealth of creative energy.

I will dive into the depths of who I am.

I will face my fears and limiting beliefs.

I will be curious and available.

I will be open to surprise.

I will let go of fears, worries and doubts.

I will practice again and again, letting that little voice that says, ‘you’re not good enough’ become less and less impacting.

I will treat myself with love, kindness and forgiveness.

I will accept who I am, rain or shine.”

–from Yoga + Creativity by Lacey Haynes

“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”

–from Dune by Frank Herbert, the Litany against Fear

“When I opened the door, there was a weird blue light coming off the snow. I threw the book into the snow.”

–from Schizophrene by Bhanu Kapil

Every morning I jump out of bed and step on a landmine. The landmine is me. After the explosion, I spend the rest of the day putting the pieces together.”

–from Zen and the Art of Writing by Ray Bradbury

NaNo 2018 Day 2

Word count: 1270 so far. I’m very tired but I’m going to try to write more.

Project: Havoc’s Moon. Switching over to The Morning Star

Goals achieved/Notes: Goals from yesterday still not accomplished, but hey, I have the whole weekend for that…sure do…Anyway, the goals for today were to make a list of adjectives that describe shifting from human to wolf/werewolf. I got a pretty good list going this morning and it was so tempting to add it to my nano word count but I refrained because I’m going to write those words in the text later and I don’t want to double dip (even though it’s not technically cheating). I also went through some of my notes-I use the notes app on my phone when I wake up in the middle of the night and have a super cool idea but I’m too tired to get up and do anything about it. I have a lot of one liners and single sentence ideas accumulated. Trying to weed through those will help when inspiration is low, I’m sure.

Total word count: 2970 as of 8:19 pm.

Having a day job sucks the life out of you sometimes but you gotta pay the bills so you can keep writing even when you’re tired as fuck.

How’d y’all do today?

KEEP ON KEEPING ON 🙂

NaNo 2018 Day 1

Word count: 1,700 🙂

Holy shit I’ve never met my word count on Day 1!

Project: Havoc’s Moon

Today’s goals: Find new names for characters, give said characters a new backstory, develop more of the society. I did NONE OF THESE. What I did do was build more of a relationship between my protagonist and her “pet.”

I got the bulk of my word count today by listening to one of Nanowrimo’s write ins on YouTube. I don’t like watching them live because I never tune in at the beginning. I am physically and mentally incapable of being punctual for a live stream. So I like watching write ins from the archives.

How’d y’all do?

Keep writing!

Characters Talking

I never had imaginary friends growing up.

I had stuffed animals who I imagined were alive but they were grounded in reality and fluffiness. I never made anyone up on my own, the voice in my head was my own and very alone.

Until I decided to do nanowrimo in 2016 and I said I don’t care what I write, I’m going to write 50,000 words of prose and I don’t care what that prose is.

So, as a poet not knowing anything about writing fiction, I began to write and out of my writing came my first imaginary friends.

And the reason why I call them imaginary friends and not just characters is because as I wrote their story they started deviating from my plot and making their own decisions.

I would write a scene and hate it. I would write another scene and hate it too. And then I asked my character point blank: “What the actual fuck is wrong with you? Why aren’t you doing what I want?”

And that character talked back to me. He said, and I quote: “Becasue it’s stupid. I don’t want to do that.”

And that is how Away from my Heart of the Forest Cycle was born. He told me “no.” I asked him what he wanted to do instead. And he told me. So I wrote that. And I liked it a lot better than what I had tried to come up with.

SO the moral of this story is LISTEN TO YOUR CHARACTERS.

If you’re stuck somewhere and slumping around writing, check to see if your characters are working with the scene or not.

Don’t force your characters to do something that they wouldn’t normally do unless you have a really good reason. Because you want your plot to go that way is not a good enough reason.

If your characters want to do something that seems completely crazy to you, let them do it. You can always cut it out later or change it if you don’t like it.

You gave your characters life by writing their stories. Let them live.

You are not losing your mind if your characters talk back to you 🙂