SJ Tucker, Tattoo Grrl
(Also inspiration for my short story Demon Moon.)
Public Service Announcement: a few of my favorite poems from Lupercalia are now on audio!
There is an option to pay what you want if you’d like to toss a dollar my way but only if you really, really want to. I want you to have my poems more than I want you to pay me for them.
The tracks themselves are decent but they are not digitally mastered or made with any kind of professional recording equipment. I always try to put out the best possible product but right now I can’t afford a microphone or rent a sound booth so don’t judge too hard.
I tried to keep the cat and traffic noises to a minimum.
After I finished recording my poems we had a French drain dug in our back yard and replaced one of the walls in our den so there was too much construction noise to record anything else but there will be audio versions of a few of my short stories coming soon.
LUPERCALIA TRACK LIST
2. How to Build a Nest
3. Wife of Lot
4. Mermaid Songbook: A Boat Alone
5. Mermaid Songbook: The Witch’s Song
6. Mermaid Songbook: Dead Mermaid Singing
7. Mermaid Songbook: Redemption
8. Little Girls
10. After the Flood
12. Twisted Myth
13. Mirror Angels
15. Things Tourists Love
Wander through the nameless city full of rebellion, desire, and viciousness. Jessica Halsey’s Lupercalia guides readers through the ruins of stories as they smash against reality.
The city is born, slippery and feral, and then it grows, collects and rejects a multitude of denizens that break and reshape the boundaries of mythology.
These speculative and fantastical poems represent the search for identity and purpose in a world that challenges the endurance of the human spirit. From the fall of Icarus to the loneliness of abandon, these poems represent how every mythological hero and trial are reflections of our daily lives.
This is an example of one of the ways I think up characters:
Me: (recording poems for my audiobook)
Icharus: I want to be a character now.
Me: But you already are.
Icharus: In a book.
Icharus: I want to be in a book. I didn’t die when I fell. And I love Orpheus.
Me: You do? Ok just hang on a–
Icharus: And I want my book to be like every James Baldwin novel but with more sex.
Me: I don’t know if I can be that brutal.
Icharus: And it’s going to be a trilogy.
Me: Well you’ll have to get in line behind Regina, all the Echos, Helen, and everybody else.
Icharus: Did I mention I love Orpheus? And maybe one of the gods too. Apollo could be very metaphorical.
Me: Take a number and get in line!
Icharus: I really, really want a book-trilogy.
Me: You’ll get one just shut up and let me work!
Icharus: I don’t trust you.
Me: It’ll happen! You’re in the queue. I promise!
Icharus: You’re going to have to do a lot of research. Geography is really important.
Me: I know!
Icharus: …maybe Achilles…
Me: Don’t push it.
And on and on it went and that is how I made the decision to eventually write a gay romance. A character popped into my head that wouldn’t shut up. But really this character has been in my head since 2012 and didn’t find his voice until day before yesterday. Before that he was a shadowy idea floating around in my brain meat.
It happened during a writing exercise I did back in grad school (see how long ago). The exercise was to look at a book cover and write the synopsis on the back. No influence from the real synopsis or any other information from the book. Just write something based off the cover. You should try it, it’s super fun.
When I read my little blurb the girl sitting at the table directly across from me lit up with a smile and after class she told me I had to write that character, that his voice was so clear to her.
At the time I wasn’t writing fiction but I thought she was super nice to say so, so I put the suggestion away and now almost 7, count em, 7 years later here’s that voice again.
But this time I am writing fiction and I don’t want to tell him to go away. So I guess I’m adding another project to my publication schedule.
How do your characters come to you?
Or, if you’re a poet, how do poems happen?
DO THE WORK: RESEARCH!
In my humble opinion, it is the WORST IDEA EVER to make up something, especially for science fiction or fantasy and not put work into researching your subject.
I have a character that became a vampire in 6th century Britain. As I was working on his backstory a spontaneous cemetery scene popped into my head. I wrote it and then re-read it and something felt off.
Specifically, the setting. I got the clothes and the political climate right–because I researched them–but I had no idea what a 6th century Cornwall/Devon-ish cemetery looked like. I knew nothing about the burial customs of Anglo-Saxon England.
I do now.
Because I researched it. Cremation was a thing. Pretty cool stuff. Here’s a link. And then I had to go a step further and research battlefield burial practices in Anglo-Saxon England. Here’s another link.
Now you might be thinking: but if I’m writing science fiction or fantasy isn’t everything already made up? Why does it matter?
Because if your details, timelines, or invented technologies don’t add up your writing isn’t going to be strong and you might face a lot of criticism once you put your book out into the world.
As I was summarizing the plot of a science fiction novel A writer acquaintance of mine once commented, “Laser fire won’t work, you can’t have lasers as weapons in space. Light doesn’t hurt things in space.”
And while I told her the word “laser” was just a place holder for the IDEA OF THE THING until I figured out what would work as a super spacey technologically advanced weapon system that NO ONE ELSE HAS DONE YET (haha yeah right), I really appreciate her comment because even though it means more work for me, it also means that when I get the work done and figure out what would work instead of a generic and inaccurate trope.
I’m still researching and working on that one, by the way.
Helpful Hint #1:
I will often use Wikipedia as a starting place for narrowing the specificity of my research but I DO NOT take everything on there as fact. Anyone can add things to a Wikipedia page, it might not all be true.
I like to use newspapers and academic sites (.edu) for sources because they usually have to fact check, have additional source material, and have to adhere to some standard of quality and credibility.
Academic and research papers from sites like JSTOR are good as well.
Helpful Hint #2:
When you’ve finally found your source you want to make sure the information is presented in an objective manner. If you found a nifty academic paper with a thesis statement, that’s cool, but you don’t want to waste your time reading someone’s 20 page treatise on their OPINION of the subject when you want facts.
Objectivity is key. Look for facts, not opinions.
Helpful Hint #3:
This may seem like a time waster but you’ll be better off in the long run. VERIFY YOUR INFORMATION by finding multiple sources that say the same thing. If more than one person repeats the same fact/date/whatever, it’s more likely to be true.
My teachers in college always told me to do this and me, being a terrible student, was all like, “I am not wasting my time like that!” And then I got an F on the paper because I’d used fraudulent sources. Because I didn’t check to see if my source material was actually right. I was so embarrassed. Don’t let that kind of thing happen to you.
So to sum up:
1. Research your subjects
2. Use credible sources
3. Get concrete facts
4. Check those facts across multiple sources
Fact checking is so important, not just in research for your work in progress, but in how you conduct yourself as a creative person, especially on social media. Make sure you have all your information before you post that tweet or that blog post.
Follow up question:
How does researching treat you? Do you love spending hours jumping down knowledge rabbit holes or is it a necessary evil?
a handfull of darkness
the stars my destination
the new moon’s arms
city of illusions
time out of joint
a graveyard for lunatics
i will fear no evil
words are my matter
a maze of death
beyond this horizon
the crack in space
the cat who walks through walls
dreams must explain themselves
voices from the street
eye in the sky
something wicked this way comes
the green brain
the dragon in the sea
stranger in a strange land
wave without a shore
A found poem made up of titles by Nano Hopkinson, Octavia E. Butler, C.J. Cherryh, Frank Herbert, Alfred Bester, Ursula K. LeGuin, Ray Bradbury, Robert A. Heinlein, and Phillip K. Dick
Sketch by Mr. J
Do you have one?
Did you have one?
If you’re a writer, are your characters your imaginary friends?
Today I binge watched all of Sci Fi’s Happy on Netflix and it made me think a lot about the distinct lack of imaginary friends in my life.
I never made up a taking animal or another human that only I could see and interact with. I’ve always felt slightly less human because of that. I feel like everyone who’s truly creative had an imaginary friend somewhere in their childhood, which cuts me out of the True Creative category.
I did have a stuffed rabbit named Fuzzy in elementary school and later a stuffed frog named Filbert that I had all through high school and college. Filbert was more of an emotional support plushie, a therapeutic tool, while Fuzzy was my BFF.
Somewhere in first grade Fuzzy disappeared. I don’t know if I lost him at school or if my father threw him away because I was too old to be so attached to a stuffed animal or whatever. But with Fuzzy gone I was devastated.
At this point you may be wondering if I had any real friends growing up. The answer is not really. There were a few people but we only interacted at school or through school related activities, I never kept up with them and they never kept up with me once we changed schools.
So in a sense I made my own friends but I used inanimate objects to build my stories and characters upon. I never invented a creature out of thin air, from scratch until I started seriously writing fiction. But I don’t see my characters walking around helping me kill bad guys or cheat at poker. And even though my characters do talk to me it’s only in the context of their stories, they don’t exist in this world with me.
I kinda wish they did, it might make writing easier.
To anyone reading this: what’s your experience with imaginary friends? I’d love to know your thoughts on the subject. And if you’ve seen Happy and if you liked it. I personally thought it was amazing.