1. A Boat Alone*
of eyes and
1. A Boat Alone*
of eyes and
Begin when our mothers call us daughters the devil. Lone shadows skitter across the wall between bookcases and all the things that should have been thrown out, including you; the detritus of corners and cobwebs, boxes piled high with canned food, laundry, years of newspapers and unpaid bills.
Begin when our mothers call us daughters the devil as you evade sharp corners and the door that opens and closes; the border between madness and our small, fractured sanctuaries. Belong to the small bed, the belongings scattered around the small bed, the junk we will denounce when we want to grow up like desperate things, when we say we will never be like our mothers.
Begin when every gift, every meal, every scrap of clothing exists in their individual moments as the opposite of a slap in the face. Take the gifts with a smile and the moment her back is turned, run like hell. Answer the phone with an offering of innocence, eyes down. Maybe she won’t bite. Sleep as if nothing is wrong, sleep as if you are in the safest place in the world and then try to remember how to breathe.
Make believe, when our mothers call us daughters the devil, eventually rain will fall from the mouth of the full moon into the eyelets of our bedroom windows and fill the cloven prism.
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1. As a bird that has no hope.
Embrace the numbness in your hands, the writhing micro-fractures in your ribs as they grow into bright veins of quartz and agate, burst into winged fractals when no one is looking.
2. As a bird that thinks she has a lot of hope but really has none.
Choose the number of vertebrae you’d wish your favorite enemy to take out of your spine and treble it, if you are brave. That is the number of shiny things you must gather to attract a mate and keep yourself sane. Learn to make up the lines of poems you can’t remember. The dead won’t mind and the living are too preoccupied to care.
3. As a bird that has reached that powerful space beyond desperation.
Don’t be afraid to create with your teeth. Blind them with your claws, dive down their throats. This technique may not promise survival but in this way you can make beauty out of whoever tries to kill you.
A monstrous smile
moves in the wildness;
you said: get the quick
victory. Take me on faith.
Lost people remember
the fire, the starlight,
the luminous morning moving
in the darkness.
You keep talking; you
Need me doing like I’m
told. I didn’t
really think of
the subway, music
like red fire, the world
looking like the enemy.
Found poem. Source: pages 89, 146-7 of Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury.
First published in The Found Poetry Review (as Jessica Otto).
cold coffee the
THE MAJESTIC HOTEL
BURNED FOR NEARLY
*Found poem. Source: The New York Times, April 2014.
Chapter 9: HERE
“So it’s the zombie apocalypse?” Away asked.
“And then—No! Have you not been listening? Babes expired and rotted away in their cribs. When did I say anywhere in my exposition that the babes came back to life and ate their parents after dissolving into puddles of goo?” Here said.
“People rot. Then they come back. It’s always how it goes,” Away said.
“Not this time. Not this story. Fire doesn’t bring people back. Fire destroys everything,” Here said.
“Except fire extinguishers,” Away said.